Highs and Lows

It must have been a reflection of the work I was doing on my patience yesterday. It was clear today that I still had work to do. This should have been an eezy-peezy Thursday as Thursdays usually are. But not today right from the get-go. We have that meeting tomorrow with the FRB Staff letting them know we're going to keep working remotely through March 2021 and so myself and our very new Director of HR is pretty much doing the talking. She's a bit nervous it seemed putting stuff together. I know everyone already and I could pretty much wing it, but I did have stuff I could present that I already compiled from past Tech Council Meetings. Still with my team meeting at 9 AM and the meeting with the HR Director to talk about our presentation tomorrow, I was pretty much occupied all morning uncharacteristically for a Thursday. And I was still working on stuff as lunchtime came. Which as really the reason I got impatient. And when Johnnie asked if we could bike to Ralphs where we could pick up spaghettios for his lunch (absolutely his idea, probably from a Blippi episode), I thought it was a good idea. I had pretty much left him alone all morning and I thought it would be good for him to get some exercise in and get outside at that. Except that when he fell right out of the gate, right where I almost fell myself, I found myself yelling at him to get up. W-h-a-t? Who is this guy? His little child just fell on his bike and had trouble getting up and he's yelling at him? What asshole does that? Fortunately I snapped myself back to sanity, interrupted my own state and got back to center such that when we got to Ralphs, Johnnie actually seemed to forget about me yelling and was actually more focused that he got there on his bike all on his own. So much so that after e got his spaghettios and I got me some fried chicken, he asked to eat outside my front door at the patio area. Kind of a picnic such as it were. I thought it was really cool actually, us having an outdoor lunch and all. And THEN I spent pretty much most of the afternoon working on my presentation for tomorrow. Feels like a Tech Council week all of a sudden LOL. One thing I do have to conclude: FOCUSING ON WORK MAKES ME IMPATIENT. Which means I need to do better at switching off when I'm done with work as in when I was riding to Ralphs at lunch with Johnnie. [Also why the title of this post is Highs and Lows]. The HIgHs and LoWs theme would continue through the rest of the day.
I did finish my presentation before the afternoon was over, which gave me time to catch up on my aerobic steps. I do those in the bathroom now when Johnnie is around simply because that's all the private space I have left. Johnnie actually did very very well left by himself. So much so that I rewarded him with another bike ride after I got done working on my presentation. It was such a nice day out. Not so hot, nice cooling breeze. And simply being outside and on our riding vehicles (Johnnie on his bike, me on my scooter) was easily the PLAY of the DAY. We biked all the way to Mar Vista Elementary and back. And hearing Johnnie exclaim "I can't believe I made it all the way there and back!" was priceless. Such a HIGH. That said that also brought a low. First I got an email from AT&T about that bill we're still working on. It appears that it's biting me in the ass again. The CTF discount wasn't applied and it appears unlikely to. Which immediately snapped my HIGH mood back to ANNOYED, and definitely LOW. And when Lisa called and we agreed for me to bring him to her office because she had to work late, I told Johnnie. The problem was he wanted to take his bike with him. And when I told him he couldn't he was crying within 5 minutes. Sigh. Definitely a LOW. How could I bring him to Lisa with his mask all wet from his tears?! I at least got him to agree to wait until his mom is ok with him bringing the bike to her house. Fast forward: we went to her office, Lisa got to see Johnnie, Jorge was there and I got to talk to him for a few. We went back to the apartment and when Lisa was ready I brought him to her house... WITH his bike. One last problem... He didn't have Fuzzy. OMG!!! He started to cry again. That's twice in one day! We had no choice. Lisa took Johnnie back to her office where he thought he left it. I went home... to find Fuzzy on my couch!!! LOW..HIGH.  I called Lisa, mom and son came by to pick up Fuzzy. All was good. I went to sleep because I had to be back at Lisa's at 7 AM. What a day...