Sunday Golf Sunday Chill

And so today is another Sunday golf day, another chance to do better than last week, to practice relaxing in the moment of the swing and slowing it down, and on a broader scale, to figure out and practice my manifestation abilities. And what do I want to manifest? To have fun at the golf course with my friends, to play well, and win the match. Tall order? We'll see. I did some visualizing already throughout the day yesterday, but I didn't think I incorporated feelings enough. As in feeling good after shots, after holes. My first shot was a dribbler that did carry enough for a decent second shot, which I got right down the fairway in front of the green. Scott and Greg both started horribly, and so I ended up winning that first hole with a 6 mainly because I overshot the green with my third shot. Should have choked up on the club some. But hey I won it. And when I won the 2nd hole with a decent 5 to tie Greg I found myself in unfamiliar territory... leading after TWO HOLES!! See? The visualizing worked. Then somehow I fell apart on the next hole which is something I have to work on next. I had the right ideas and everything, just that I talked up leading as if it was not usual and that I should be playing worse. And so I mentally talked myself into doing just that. I chose an outcome of playing worse. And so I did. I still had a nice drive on Hole 4, got to right in front of the green again after 2 shots. But then shanked the 60 yard chip. THAT is what I need to work on next. The narrative that I can't make a good shot under 100 yards. And also that I don't putt very well. Truth is I can do whatever i want. I just have to focus. I missed tying for the win on Hole 5 because I missed a short putt. But I did have a nice 2nd shot that overshot the hole after whiffing off the tee. And then the recovery shot almost went in. And on Hole 6, which was the same as Hole 3 in that I just lost focus and let negative thoughts bring me back to the hacking, whiffing mess that I need to focus on letting go of. Again I recovered on Hole 7, getting a nice tee shot and then a 5-iron to right in front of the hole again. but I missed the tying putt yet again and it was a short 6-foot putt that I left short. I should have won 4 holes by now. And finally on Hole 8 I did tie for the win. It should have been my 5th winning hole. Hole 9 was a story in losing focus. I hit my first 2 shots well on the longest hole. I was already within 60 yards. But yet again the "can't hit under 100 yards" took over and it took me 6 shots from there to putt in. It was actually pretty incredible how badly I played after the first 2 shots. And so it was that I didn't play too badly. But I should have played better, and I could have tied for the match. But I didn't. And so back to the drawing board and work on releasing the negative thoughts.

I went home and made myself ground turkey tacos on street taco Hawaiian bread mini-tortillas. Had at least 3 of those actually and they were pretty good. And then took a nice nap for over an hour. I didn't do any binge watching last night but i might as well have considering I went to bed around 12:30 AM anyway. What is it about staying up late when Johnnie isn't with me? Yet another negative habit I need to work on. By the time I woke up I realized I had actually gotten the stuff I usually take all day to do done already. Completed 78000 steps for the week? check. 320 active minutes? that was already done by Friday. Same as the cardio minutes. I realized this was MY TIME to chill out and get back to center. Johnnie wasn't around but I left out his little storefront as "saved work". Hey he did clean up the house on Thursday. Later on I would make myself ground beef/lamb tagine, very much happy that I could vacuum seal whatever I didn't eat and get to it later on next week. And then i watched the movie "The Secret Dare to Dream", which was an adaptation from the very famous Law of Attraction book "THE SECRET" from many years ago. This had Josh Lucas and Katie Holmes in it and it actually turned out pretty well. The concepts were broad: FOCUS ON WHAT YOU WANT INSTEAD OF THE THINGS YOU DON'T WANT. Let the Universe work for you. Should have used it more on the golf game this morning. And maybe the message was also that you should look for some good things even when bad things happen. Back to the golf game, to me it was a matter of interrupting my own pattern when I hit bad shots and then focus on good shots right after, which I didn't do enough of because an old program was running. Then again, I still was able to get to the point of turning things around at all times wasn't I? The movie was as good a reminder as any. And a nice way to cap my Sunday evening. Hey I got to play golf and I hit some nice shots from the fairway with my irons didn't I? All good.