Starting The Week Strong... Or Not

This week's Monday wake-up was really no different than usual, except perhaps that today I was pretty focused on changing up my rituals so I can support all the other "work" I'm trying to accomplish. The internal transformation that would leave to massive external transformation is now very much in the forefront and perhaps it's because I am starting to become aware that it's December and the year is coming to a close and I am feeling somewhat frustrated that I have not made the changes that I want to make. And even with the pandemic now raging especially here in SoCal. I don't know that I expected of myself really. I'm trying not to be too attached to the outcome and let the Universe simply show me the path. But I don't think I've been consistent enough with my own work. After all it's my subconscious mind I need to change don't I? It has always been. And I keep letting myself get dragged back into the distraction of the day-to-day grind. Which simply means work. And so although I got plenty of work done first thing with my meditation and image cycling, I also simultaneously felt the urgency of getting stuff done for my day job. All that culminating with eating  breakfast late and actually not getting started even taking a shower until well past 9 AM. Closer to 9:30 actually LOL. Still I was engaged enough to be at the usual Monday morning Business Continuity meeting at 10:30 and I even got a quick call from Lisa about her 10 AM appointment with Cedars-Sinai. Although that was literally a 30-second reaction to not being sure about getting logged in to her telehealth appointment. Even when I'm not dealing with Q/QC users, I'm dealing with some kind of computer assistance situation LOL. The thing was that being in a space of connecting with my Higher Self literally takes me out of my routine. And that means by 2 PM, I was barely at 800 steps at all.  And I remembered Lisa was dropping Johnnie off early because she had to go in to get medication infusion at Cedars-Sinai. She was dropping him off on her way there at 4 PM. And so I had to go back to what worked way back in the spring... which was to do aerobics class online. True enough, the Leslie Sansone Youtube videos had me warmed up and up to 6000 steps in almost no time. And I caught up to my 13000 pace by mid-afternoon. See? You CAN do everything, including the meditation routine. 

Coincidentally, I was walking back to the apartment after picking up something in the package room (Johnnie's H&M underwear actually) when I saw Lisa and son pull up. And so Lisa dropped him off right then and there. It was not even 4:30 PM yet. You're never really sure if Lisa's time is exactly what she told you but hey I'm not buggin' about it. Especially since I end up with Johnnie earlier than usual. Hey it's still light out even. And he even said he had presents for me. Of course that would only make up for Lisa being disappointed that the H&M underwear that I had under my arm which just came was in her opinion too big for Johnnie. I think it will be fine once it shrinks... I mean she IS notorious for dressing him up in clothes way too small for him.  She has this thing about really tight-fitting clothes I guess. Oh well, she dropped him off and all was good. I was glad to get Johnnie back although I really didn't have a gap where I didn't see him for a couple of days. That's what the pandemic did for me at least. Less trips out of town for Lisa and especially in the next few weeks too. This guarantees she will be in town and close to home for the holidays unlike last year when they went to Paris. Actually for today, I ran into a burst of energy from mid-afternoon on even when I had Johnnie. I knocked off a couple of things off my list at work, and I had even gotten caught up with a bunch of other things too. And Johnnie was happy as a lark just doing drawings in the living room, especially since he had a couple of hybrid dinosaurs he had in mind to put on paper. I mean his mom just dropped him off and he was already drawing something for her LOL. Dinner was at Panda Express tonight and I was happy to eat leftover fettuccini alfredo Arnel style. And I was happy to spend Monday night playing with Johnnie and doing our rituals. This time, Lisa made chocolate chip cookies and sent them with Johnnie so that was great. And we ended the evening like we always do, with Johnnie on my shoulders as we go get ready for bed. I actually pushed myself physically today, even throwing in 40 pushups in under a minute <since I saw that if you can do that, there is virtually no chance you will be experiencing a cardiac event at any time... looks like I'm good there>, I was actually physically tired and glad to go to bed early. Glad to knock off to sleep early too. It's all good. I started the week strong after all.