Another Physical Thing To Deal With

In the meantime, with all the civil unrest going on, it would seem that I have developed yet another physical malady. Now there is numbness in the right side of my face. Reminded me of 2003 when I had fairly bad Bell's palsy. I never did find out what caused it back then other than stress because at the time I was implementing Axium at the USC dental school and bringing up their brand new private practice at the University Village. I remember Dr Deutsch said at the time I probably had a bug. One of the possible causes of this thing is the same virus that causes shingles. And now I may have it again? I can understand stress back in the day 17 years ago. And the only reason I would pay attention to that now is that just a week ago, my resting heart rate had skyrocketed all the way to 76 bpm which is a telltale sign that I am dealing with some residual stress. Or maybe I'm undergoing some kind of transformation to the degree that all things that I have left unresolved that need attention are coming back up to get released one way or the other. I actually hope it's that one and that I figure out how to release it. Or else I have to do facial exercises for the next couple of weeks. At least it really isn't as bad as the first time this hit me 17 years ago. Back then there was drooping. And I tried everything. Steroids (prednisone), accupuncture. It did eventually come back but it took a good part of a month to do so.  This time around at least there is movement, just not 100%. I'd say it's 80% as the other side of the face although you really couldn't tell. I'm annoyed more by the pain under my ear in my right jaw and the sort-of ringing in my right ear and the vibration. It comes and it goes too both of them. This time I fully intend to heal the facial weakness through energy healing and to also get to the bottom of the emotinal causes of the condition, including the stressors that seemed to have come up. Why am I stressed? Is it my job? I may be behind, but really I don't care that much. Is it being cooped up because of coronavirus? Is it more extended interactions with Lisa? Is it all of the above? If so I have to deal with them one at a time, one energetic process at a time too. Just lots of cleaning and clearing. Which I should have been doing as a coure of maintenance in the first place. Now I really have to get to it. <So according to the metaphysical literature, specifically according to Louse Hay, the root cause of Bell's Palsy is about denying emotions. It is the manifestation of the extreme control over anger, and the unwillingness or inability to express that anger. So, when emotional release is denied, the anger appears as facial paralysis.> Bells paly story here. This I can believe. How many times have I repressed emotions all my life? How many times am I doing it now?

With all these whirling in my consciousness I still go through my day-to-day job. At least with the protests going on there is yet one more excuse not to be focused on everything. Yes I still have my job to do but at least everyone can understand that there is a lot of confusion going on right now. Yes I am using that as an excuse that I haven't gotten all the contracts done that I am supposed to do. And all the other administrative stuff that I have to do. But even more importantly, it is yet another reminder to keep your loved ones close, make sure you hug them tight and love them as much as you can. Because of all the curfew stuff going on, Lisa dropped Johnnie off early today. As in 4:30 PM early. We thought the curfew would be at 5 PM again today, but actually it was 6 PM. That there is a curfew at all is already a cause for concern.  But to look at Johnnie be-bopping around with not a care in the world about any of that stuff is comforting enough. He told me all about his weekend, about how he spent a lot of it at Grandpa Coco's house. How he was in the pool and that he wasn't so afraid anymore. That's good. Time for him to learn how to swim among other things. Lisa did try to get through his Monday lesson plans but understandably didn't get through all of them. It's still ok to lower the bar for her as far as that is concerned. THAT is how I'm choosing to deal with it. Compassion over anger. And that means at least she got the thing printed at all, and that I have something to follow all week. This is after all the 2nd to the last week before the school year officially ends for Johnnie. Tonight I chose not to catch up with whatever Lisa didn't get to. I figured I have plenty of time all week to do that. Simple enough to get Johnnie some chicken nuggets before curfew and some penne in chicken broth for his dinner. And let him watch Cat-In-the-Hat to insulate him from the world outside.  Protests are still going on. I could hear police sirens and police helicopters hovering over the city. Our part of the city even.  But we're safe inside. And that is all that counts.