Summer Breeze

Maybe it was the hour I spent this morning actually scanning my emotional body and also my physical body actually to see if there was any residual negative energy I needed to clear first thing. Consequently my vibration was high first thing this morning and I sustained it pretty much through the day. Except maybe for a brief ego bout later in the day. The picture I posted was of me after making myself a corned beef and eggs breakfast and eating it while dancing to "Only When You Leave" Spandau Ballet. Yes you can unpack that any way you like. Why that song? I don't know other than it was on my mind when I woke up this morning. I hadn't heard that song in decades and then when I started getting into aerobics again and thus flashing back to all those songs I used to compile for Resur's classes, I rediscovered "to Cut a Long Story Short" and then "Only When You Leave". No emotional significance really. At least not that I can discern right then, just that I was happy and energized. Probably also because I took a shower for the first time since Thursday night LOL. Boy did I need it. Anyway I kept up the high energy all through the morning, even through the 10:30 Business Continuity Meeting. That meeting lasted a pretty good hour but that wasn't so bad. I had so much energy that I even did some aerobic exercises right in the middle of the afternoon. Makes it easy to get to 11,000 steps that way. Especially after I walked to whole Foods at lunchtime. This enabled me to enjoy the nice summer day this turned out to be. I did have a bit of a blip though when I saw what Kennedy and Greg Stevens were doing with the Approvals Center project. I have sort of let them run loose and it's pretty clear that I need to rein them in a little.  In that sense I do remember what my boss Eloisa told me and that was that I AM the IS Director and I need to direct. Sometimes it is NOT a democracy especially when it is my ass on the line. Kennedy is enthusiastic and well-meaning but really REALLY inexpeirenced. Greg is too and knows a lot about the Purchasing process, but he can not see the data relationships like someone like me can. And so when I saw all these channels in the Purchasing Team, I sort of freaked. I had to have a conversation with Kennedy and it is really difficult to be the IS Director without engaging my own ego. This was the first time I felt negative energy all day. And I need to acknowledge that negative energy is something I need to transmute, not empower. And only when I don't give control to my ego will I be able to do that.

Anyway, 5:30 PM came soon enough and I got back to positive energies and higher thoughtforms. I  picked Johnnie up and helped Lisa bring in her trash bins and helped Johnnie clean up. And then off we went. Johnnie got as far as asking for chicken mcNuggets for dinner before I discovered that he knocked off to sleep in the backseat right as I was in line at the McDonald's Drive-thru. I had to carry him in to the apartment. I will say this... he has gotten much bigger and a little heavier and it is harder to carry him now than ever before. But carrying him in while I can will never get old. He will forever be my little boy. The picture I posted is sort of my belated Father's Day picture. So I put him down on the bed and let him sleep. Which gave me time to just chill and keep watching Jessica Jones on Netflix <latest series I'm binging on>. As I thought, i got to 11,000 steps before it was even 7 PM.  And I made myself some ground pork and bok choy dish in oyster sauce.  It as an old favorite of mine to make even back in the day when I was still with Lisa. When she still ate this stuff sort of. Now she eats fish mostly and not really that much else. But I can hardly blame her for her diet considering her condition. By 8 PM, I decided to wake Johnnie up. I could let him sleep through but I didn't want him to wake up at midnight and be up for another couple of hours.  Turned out he did wake up and I immediately gave him his chicken McNuggets. And got him to wash it down with milk+pediasure. I think he got a pretty nutritious dinner after all. And then I let him watch some Peep & Chirp. Really he was only up a couple of hours before it was time for his shower and his prep for real bedtime.  As it was I know he knocked off in the afternoon because he was tired. I think Lisa mentioned she and Johnnie walked to the store. They probably walked at least a couple of miles and I'm sure Johnnie got tired. Anyway he didn't have any problems going right back to sleep before 10 PM.  Monday in the books.