At Least I Played Golf...

So I headed out to Altadena Golf Course this morning for a 9:20 tee time armed with my double smoked bacon breakfast sandwich and Earl Grey tea from Starbucks. Why 9:20? It was the earliest I could get. At first it was Scott, Greg, and myself but Greg bowed out at the last second so it was just Scott and I this morning. At first I was going to bug out too. Didn't I want to do some meditation and work on getting myself back to balance? Wouldn't it be good to that this morning? Then I figured I had the rest of the day to do that and so I headed out anyway. I had lingering thoughts of the guys not wanting to play with me. But then again do I really care about that? As long as I got to play? After all, it was a nice, warm, sunshiny Sunday. And so it was that Scott and I got to go out and play and what did I do the first two holes? Couldn't hit the ball in the fairway. I kept telling myself to relax my swing, relax my swing but either I couldn't do that OR my rhythm simply wasn't there. Now i KNOW it's mental. Now I'm SURE it's something internal keeping me from hitting the ball square. Fortunately, by the 3rd hole i did find my bearings and started to hit the ball much better. And on the longest hole on 4, I almost got a par. I had a par putt staring me in the face 4 feet away. But I blew the putt. Won the hole but blew the putt. By the 5th hole I pulled even with Scott, even though I lost the first 2 holes and by the 6th hole I had pulled ahead. We tied on 7th when I wasted my best tee shot of the day. And then he won Hole 8 to set up a winner-take-all last hole of the day. It was a really long hole so I felt like I had an advantage. And after my first 2 shots i was already 100 yards away from the green. In the meantime Scott flubbed at least 3 shots. And so I played it real conservatively from there. Hit a short 3rd shot, got on the green to putt for par. But it was a 20 foot putt. I missed that but got my 6 to win the hole and the match. YAY! It felt good to know I should have hit par on the 2 longest holes. And really if you take away the first 2 holes, I played pretty well. We were done by 11, I was home before noon and I felt good about my Sunday morning already.

In the meantime, my face seems to be improving and I actually saw the ball pretty well today and my right eye didn't get irritated like it did last week. AND for the first time in over a month, I made it to 80,000 steps for the week! That might not sound like a big deal but considering I had been dealing with physical things for the good part of a month now, first with the leg aches and now with the Bell's palsy I thought it was actually a huge distraction to the point that I actually started to think something was seriously wrong physically. Or maybe that's just my other self trying to assert itself since I've been trying to prioritize my Higher Self. "think you're all that huh? Let's see you get a load of THIS" it seemed to be saying. And I fell prey to old thinking of FEAR and DOUBT and ANXIETY I will admit. But hopefully I have fought through all that. Or rather I have accepted the lower energies that are a part of me too and while acknowledging them I also refuse to give them power. "Thank you for sharing" but now I must get back on track. Fortunately in this day and age there are far more resources available than there was 17 years ago. I even came across this video by YouTube influencer and one of the growing number of spirituality and manifestatin/law of attraction "teachers" Leeor Alexandra who also happened to be stricken with Bells Palsy too. So she talked about her journey and how she healed using holistic methods. As I'm trying to do. And so today I felt good that I was able to find resources to help. I celebrated by barbecuing myself a nice carne asada steak for dinner. Hey it's June after all, summer is around the corner and even the pool at the apartment complex has officially opened. A nice dinner did I have, and I got to do all my little Sunday afternoon routines and didn't have to deal with Lisa since she and Johnnie were supposedly over at her dad's house. And so it was that I just simply let myself get immersed with whatever I encountered the rest of the evening. More videos on frequency healing, the latest episode of Snowpiercer which is the latest TV series I'm into on Sundays, and I let raindrops on Youtube lull me to sleep right there on the couch.  it's all good. It's Sunday :)