Can't Breathe Out Just Yet

I know it's Thursday, and it's the day after yet another Tech Council Meeting. Which usually means I'm chillin' out, I'm taking a deep breath and cruisin' for the day. And if that were true, I'd just go do Johnnie's class schedule, have my usual IS Team Meeting and then call it a day. But I can't. And that's because I find out I now have 24 policies that I need to review by tomorrow. I COULD just blow it off and just let the thing slide through the weekend. But I can't. My work ethic won't let me. I know I can get it done by today, seeing as I don't really have anything on my schedule either. It's not like I really have a good excuse not to get it done. And so I worked on it... but not until after lunch. After all, I was far more involved with Johnnie's Zoom classes, first Computer class and then Music class. I posted a pic of he and I logging in to Zoom for his 9 AM class. That is, of course, after wolfing down his McDonald's deluxe breakfast and getting his half hour of Blippi. I did my team meeting concurrently with his music class and that seemed to work out okay. After all, I didn't need to be around when he's doing his marakas and his rhythm instruments on Zoom. That by itself is a bit strange, but hey we'll make it work. I made sure he was done with all his lessons by 11 AM, and that's because I wanted to go to the store and pick up some mac and cheese for him for his lunch. I'm good with starting him off with a new-old something to eat. I wanted so bad to take a nap too and I reminded myself that I barely slept for 4 hours last night. Which kept up a bad pattern of not-so-good sleep all week long. But that's ok. I can catch up tonight once and for all. Or can I?

I surprised Johnnie after lunch by getting him suited up with his swim trunks. Yep, I felt like he was getting PTSD about his swimming that I wanted to make sure he "got right back up on his horse". And so before it was even 2 PM, we were at the pool. I thought it was promising that he was at least comfortable with going underwater even though it was by the edge. That's the first step. I reminded myself that Johnnie always wants to learn on his terms. And he was doing well too like we did when we last were in the pool together. Until one sequence when he was swimming across, he started getting panicky, so much so that when he got out of the pool I felt like he was hyperventilating. I had to get him to breathe normally which took about 5 minutes. Great Arnel. You were supposed to keep him from getting emotional trauma about swimming. But how he got to panic mode was a bit odd... because I don't know what the trigger was. He was honestly doing well. Now keeping in mind that all kids are mostly in theta, I wonder if this was a different energy I needed to deal with. Could it be that he dealt with someone drowning in a past life? Maybe even himself? Hmmm. All I know is that I wanted to make sure he knew it was safe, and that he could count on me being there. Always. And that I would never let anything bad happen to him. And so when we walked home after an hour, he was back to his smiling self (see picture). We got his Panda express for dinner, Lisa picked him up at 7:30 PM when she decided to become his mom again LOL. And then I spent the rest of the evening finishing out my steps and working on my policies. And I got them done. It was close to midnight when I did but at least I did. And NOW I can tank it tomorrow...