Mid Week Busy-ness

So yesterday I was also told by Eloisa my boss that Emma our Director of Compliance is getting a promotion and that she is divesting some of her responsibilities. Which means I'm getting Data Analytics back. Lam and James coming home LOL. I remember the gut-punch like talk I got in December of 2018. I acted like I didn't care but when something is taken away from you, it is a perception that you're not getting the job done, or that people are not expecting you to get the job done. Here we are not even 2 years later and that team is back reporting to me. As I showed back then I talked like I didn't care. And this time, I really didn't. Whatever reason the C's have of moving things around I'm sure it had nothing to do with me. And I'm pretty sure it isn't going to affect the job I'm already doing. Hey I hired Lam. I know he's done well in the 2 years he's with us. He'll continue to do so. And so with that the pic I chose to post is me hanging out in the bbq area of my apartment, compared to years before in Hawaii. Yeah, I still look the same. So today is more of the same as I'm trying to get used to a new routine. Johnnie had art class this morning and so he was very much engrossed with the materials he was provided. I can only hope he doesn't paint over my white walls LOL. I did much better with lunch only because I talked Johnnie into getting some chicken McNuggets and then getting me a chicken sandwich for MY lunch. I reminded myself that for however many times Lisa and I would pack him a lunch, he barely ate it most of the time. 6 piece Mcnuggets is plenty... and better than yesterday's gnutella sandwich. Today I actually had work to do, but then again this was the week before Labor Day weekend, and even during the afternoon Huddle you can sense a collective indifference to the usual goings-on. It's like everyone was already packed and ready to go on the long weekend coming up. Which meant I wrapped up the meeting in 45 minutes. That would be TWO meetings this week that I facilitated that I moved along pretty damn quickly. And as soon as I got done with the meeting, Johnnie asked if we could go biking. We would have gone all the way to Panda Westwood if I suggested it. But we simply went to Maplewood Elementary and back, Johnnie on his bike and me on my scooter. It would have been great that by now, he would have been biking there and back home every day. Or taken his little scooter. I would have been picking him up from STAR right about the same time. Kind of strange to see the empty schoolyard. As it was dad and son merely enjoyed a very nice and pleasant summer afternoon even knowing that summer itself will officially end in just a couple of more weeks. It was another one of those moments I am filing away under the Summer of 2020. Bike and scooter afternoons. When we got home we immediately went to Panda Express to get our usual dinner. Same old same old, Ednah had my drink ready even before I ordered it. It felt like a routine Wednesday but it also felt a little different for me. Maybe it was my birthday yesterday that has me a little more sentimental, or maybe the thought that summer was fast coming to a close and I was still holding it close. I think it was just that I was in a generally positive space yesterday and for most of the day today that I was simply... GRATEFUL. And that is a very good place to be. And even as Johnnie flitted between watching Octonauts, doing his drawings, and generally looking for me to be with him while I was trying to do my aerobics-on-the-downlow, I did realize that it wasn't about getting anything accomplished, or getting work done that was important. I'm going to get my work done no matter what. That much I have already proven. What matters most was the look in Johnnie's eyes as he held my hand dragging me to the living room from the bedroom and making me watch his Octonauts video with him. I realized it wasn't about the video. It was all about being there. With him. at that moment. That makes all the difference in the world. I took the option of not showering tonight. We'll do it in the morning, even though he looked like he had one of those days from Blue Oak or Mar Vista last year where he had dirt streaks on his shirt and pants, food stains everywhere, dirt on his feet. Hey, that meant he had a pretty good day right? And that meant that I had a pretty good day too.