Reminders

This morning with some meditation I actually got myself pretty centered. Most likely due to all the internal work I had done yesterday. It doesn't take much to remind oneself... the trick is to stay there and keep up a practice so that you are consistently and constantly reminding yourself of your Truth. I've literally wasted decades doing this. In fact, when I look back at where I was last year, I realize that a lot of time has gone by and I really still haven't gotten to the outcomes that I want. Which means that I have work to do on my own consistency. That I still have stuff to clean and to clear. Yesterday I did that clearing on past energies regarding abundance and money. How the mentality of lack still rears its head. I also realize that there is still an energy of not-enoughness. Why else would I think about being fired and not doing a good enough job whenever I get so much as a chat from my boss Eloisa? No matter what fear I have manufactured in my head, she has always been pretty fair actually. And even if I were fired then so what? Anyway I focused on my intention for today. I actually do have some things to finish that I didn't last week, the biggest thing being those gosh-darned CTF applications. I took that on squarely and specifically why I have put off doing them. I know I didn't feel like they were important enough, but then again maybe this is a lesson in doing it anyway because it is IMPORTANT to someone else.  And you know what? After I got done with most of the information gathering, I actually felt like I could finish it by tomorrow. They still have to be printed and mailed of course but at least I got through a bulk of the work. By the end of the day in fact, I was missing just one or two more documents to put the applications together. And so I felt a lot better about finishing this thing by tomorrow ONCE and FOR all. At least I got to have a nice walk out in the sun today (see pic). Meditation isn't just limited to sitting in one spot with your eyes closed. Just feeling the summer breeze actually raises my vibration every single time, although I did manage to slip in a 20-minute powernap too right after lunch. And then I also got a phone call from an old friend... my former co-chair at the CCALAC HIT Forum Roman Chapa, asking me cybersecurity infrastructure questions. I always liked partnering with him. He was the quieter demeanor to my more abrasive nature LOL LOL. Anyway we talked for almost an hour and I even walked around the apartment while doing so, just to ensure I had my steps logged and on track for tonight.

I was already having a pretty productive and centered day I thought. By the time Lisa called to alert me that she and Johnnie were just chilling trying to relax from their heavy activity day yesterday. And so I picked up Johnnie and mommy and son had practically laid out in front of the couch watching Tangled. That's a switch...Lisa watching a movie with Johnnie. I let mommy and son say their goodbyes for the week and immediately he morphed almost entirely into a different kid just as soon as we had left. He asked for McDonald's chicken McNuggets for starters, which meant he was hungry. And then I myself morphed into Monday night mode, which is usually me finishing up the rest of my 11,000 steps and then letting Johnnie watch his videos until bedtime. Johnnie also got a nice, crisp haircut over the weekend and I was glad I didn't have to deal with his overgrown mop anymore either. For some reason I had had my best "workout days" during Mondays for the last 3 weeks and today I actually surpassed 12,000 steps! And so it was that he launched into his Octonauts videos and I told him I had a surprise for him tomorrow. That would be the straw kit I bought on Amazon for another $9. I'm getting pretty good at finding cheap stuff that would keep him occupied. But that's not coming until tomorrow. In the meantime, it was Octonauts and it was sufficient to keep his attention. In the meantime, I gave myself a pat on the back for being pretty centered today and holding my high vibration space pretty much. And with Johnnie in the house, it would be a guarantee that I would get better sleep than the weekend when I do my binge-watching. I knew it would not exactly be a quiet work week, but it's not like last week either. Hopefully tomorrow will be the same as today.