Tired on A Monday

How do I wake up tired on a Monday? By not getting to sleep until 3 AM in the morning that's how. And why did I do that? Because I ended up binge-watching again that's why. I still do have some self-destructive behaviors I need to address don't I? I got myself to at least get showered <which would be the first time since a shower-free weekend> and make myself breakfast. And then I thought about the week ahead. After the busy-ness of last week I so looked forward to an urgency-free week this week. But all I saw was that a new set of urgencies still need to be done. I wanted to get that AT&T bill settled once and for all since a bill of almost $174,000 would weigh on anybody, legit or not. And I hope to at least do some forensics on that sooner rather than later. And then of course there is that CTF application that is faux-urgent. But the fact that Barbara is bugging everyone about it MAKES it urgent and I promised I'd get it done this week. There is also stuff that HR needs from me. Policy stuff really. BYOD policy. Work from home guidance. So it appears that this week wouldn't be as quiet as I had hoped. Still there was no escaping how tired I was. And before mid-day, as soon as I had done payroll and cleaned up my email inbox <hey those are accomplishments right?>, I found myself doing the morning meditation that I skipped first thing. I plugged in to some theta frequencies and just focused on creating value today. And then the other side of me reminded me about other things I needed to do. Like the pile of money sitting in a money market in my ETrade account not doing much. I have to unhoard, get rid of my own fears and put it to work. And then of course there is my other persona, the one that wants to help others and use my talents and skillsets in order to do so. Creating value but on my own terms, not for a company. I'm reminded that trading my time for money is not actually the most efficient way to go about creating financial independence. And I must continue to seek guidance here. Before long I would find myself at Whole Foods getting Italian sausage and Steaz pear iced tea. It was nice to be reminded that I'm in the middle of another nice summer day.

I tried to take a nap after lunch but a 15 minute power "nap" where I closed my eyes and still remained half-awake was the best I could do. I guess my brain was going 100 miles an hour still and I didn't do a good job of quieting it. Instead what did I do? Watched another episode of the Magicians. I feel like an addict but hooked on video content.  And then I got an email from AT&T asking to resolve said situation. Looks like I have to do this first this week don't I. Fine by me. I set the meeting for Wednesday and set aside time to do invoice forensics. In the meantime, it IS Monday and it is also Johnnie pick-up day at some point. By 4 PM I was barely at 2000 steps. Man I really didn't do much at all today didn't I? At least I can fall back on doing aerobics as a way to catch up on steps and cardio activity quickly. And I did a very quick 2 miles in less than 40 minutes. That got me past 6000 steps before 5 PM. I'm back on track. And then I got a call from Lisa. She wanted to drop off Johnnie but needed to go to her office to do inventory. <Doesn't she have staff to do these things??> I didn't question nor react. It was perfectly fine to pick up Johnnie at her office and made arrangements to do it at 6 PM. Gave me time to pick up Johnnie's McNuggets dinner AND get almost done with my 11,000 steps.  And gave me time to make Johnnie some udon too to supplement. And by 6 PM I was at Lisa's office picking up my Little Bug. I'm sure he's going to fill me in on what happened over the weekend. Lisa was in the middle of said inventory of course and I don't know if she's merely trying to get away from Courtney who was in her house and going through some issues with her dad. JOhnnie and I went on to the apartment and just like flicking a switch, he's eating udon and watching Octonauts. I did have a surprise for him for tomorrow. I got the tin can robot kit from Amazon over the weekend. And as soon as he found it, he made me promise we would work on it tomorrow. And so it is a usual Monday evening, with me cleaning him up both physically with a shower, food-wise with dinner, and mentally by going back to our routine. Bed by 9:30 PM. For me too actually. I was almost already dead on my feet as of 6 PM tonight. Some sleep would be most welcome...