Another Tech Council Meeting

 So I dropped Johnnie off at Lisa's first thing this morning. She had just finished taking a shower when we got there. And of course nothing about Monday's incident except a declaration from her that she started seeing patients yesterday. Good for her. Now she can go back to exhausting herself working LOL. I did not expect her to do any of Johnnie's lessons today. You know, the less you expect, the easier it is to deal with when it does not happen. I simply told her I was picking Johnnie up at 3:30 and headed home to prep for my big meeting after lunch. In the meantime it had turned into a pretty nice day. I was aware that I felt better this morning after not having done 11,000 steps yesterday and so in the back of my head maybe I simply needed a quick day off. We will see how I feel later on in the day. And I also reminded myself that it is the big 3-day Memorial Day weekend coming up, which means it's officially going to be summer soon. Anyway it was too nice a day out NOT to do any walking outside. And so I did right at lunchtime. And almost immediately went beyond yesterday's total. THAT wasn't that hard considering I stopped myself short of 4,000 steps yesterday. And I was already past that by early afternoon. As far as the Tech Council Meeting went I actually had a lot of material for today. I wanted to cover how I would have deployed some resource tools had I had a little more time, instead of the mad rush to equip and train people that Friday the 13th in March. It's been more than 3 months since of course. And what I wanted to show was that the infrastructure is holding, the remote stuff is working out just fine and I wanted to gauge the group on what the Leadership's plans were in terms of the Administrative Office. It turns out Barbara is in no hurry to bring any of us back and I'm totally ok with that. I'm pretty sure we're already all going to stay remote through June. We'll see about july. Anyway I took up almost the entire hour for my presentation. And I think I did pretty well. Except that now I have to craft a BYOD policy too for the next meeting. Why did I not think I was going to end up with that? We've only been talking about that thing for years and years now. Still, the end of the Tech Council Meeting means a big sigh and breathe out for me and I get to pretty much tank it for the rest of the week I think. Lisa texted me to hold off picking up Johnnie until 5 PM because Uncle Joah was over and I was totally ok with that. We would simply go right from Lisa's house to Panda Express that's all. And today she told me that at least they got through all of his lessons! For sure Lisa must have felt guilty about not doing it last Monday. I didn't care one way or the other as I said. All that meant was that we didn't have to dedicate a couple of hours on it tonight. Instead we could have our nice Panda Express dinner as usual. What Johnnie reminded me was that I did not bake cookies last night. Man I must have really felt out of it.  I clearly felt much better tonight because I got to 10,000 steps by 8 PM. I could have pushed it and gotten to 11,000. But I felt a twinge in my lower back when I got to 10,000 and so I decided NOT to push it. Hey, 10,000 is enough at least for today. Let's just say I'm recovering from whatever it is that is afflicting me right now. At least I ate my dinner right next to Johnnie and right as he was watcing Cat-In-the-hat. IF something was afflicting me yesterday, I am much better today. But I hope I did not go back too soon. It's like all of us around the country asking if it is safe enough to reopen? Maybe, maybe not. Is it ok to go back full tilt? You ave to listen to your body. And although my body did fine today, somehow I'm thinking another day of rest wouldn't be so bad either. Besides what's really bugging me isn't just that my legs continue to be sore and achy. It's that my resting heart rate had been steadily increasing all week and reached 74 today. Technically it isn't bad. But considering it had been steadily below 69 for the last couple of months means my body is definitely out of whack about something. And if anything it is an anxiety response. Something I need to work on to be sure. I hadn't really done any meaningful meditation all week long because I fell for the misdirection of the physical symptoms and started to give in to the fear, doubt, and mostly negative thinking.  And since negative begets negative, that's how anxiety has been getting stronger day by day. And now that the Tech Council Meeting is out of the way I can breathe out and  go back to focusing on queting down all those negative influences and get my head right again. And look forward to the long weekend coming up. And continue to figure out what the next new normal is. I let myself get yanked out of that to be sure. Now to get back to level.