Best.Thursday.Ever

I had gotten away from setting my intentions at the beginning of each day, gotten away from my morning routine. And today I tried to maybe get back to it a little. My intention today was simple: Keep my vibration up, ESPECIALLY when dealing with Johnnie. That means being a heck of a lot more patient than I have shown so far. In that sense I have disappointed myself more times than I'd like to admit. But I can also FORGIVE MYSELF, and do better. Focus on WHY I lose patience. FOCUS on my expectations and maybe that they are higher than they should be. That somehow maybe it is ME that is projecting perfection that I used to pin on Lisa and her personality. Either way I know I don't need to be as hard on Johnnie as I have been. He's a great kid. A very intelligent kid and already a far higher performer than I expect already. There isn't even any reason to be hard on him other than maybe I don't want him skating around like I do. Back in the day I knew I was smart and didn't try so hard. I don't want him getting that bad habit. Anyway look at him doing his Zoom class with Ms Gee. They were doing some dancing, some reading, and Johnnie was so excited to share his "Friends" writing exercise because he was writing about he and Tony. Even called him his brother. By lunchtime I not only had Johnnie all finished with today's lessons, he was finished with tomorrow's lesson as well. That guarantees that Lisa won't have to find time to do those lessons with him. She can lollygag all she wants then. The best part though was that I was actually able to control my temper with Johnnie all morning. And I ws actually light-hearted while overseeing his lessons. I dare say he even had fun doing them this morning.

By the time I got through the mid-afternoon, I promised Johnnie we'd take his scooter and practice riding to Mar Vista Elementary, almost 3/4 miles away... a mile-and-a-half round trip. He has never gone that far before but I think he'd make it based on his first foray last week. And that was with me yelling at him 50% of the time. I was determined to keep up the morning's effort and not to yell at him at all if I could possibly help it. And you wanna know something, I'm not sure how I did it but I never did yell at him. And he made it to the school and back pretty easily too.  Which proves he can actually do it. YESSS!!! This means he can scooter all the way from the apartment to the school from now on! He has the confidence! He did sooo well. He did fine doing  intersections and watching out for cars. We even took a picture of him on is favorite tree root for the first time in a couple of months. Anyway he had so much fun and so did I. He just had one little spill right before the light on McLaughlin. And actually, that wouldn't be the only time he would take a spill today. He had a few of them in fact, including one when I snapped him hard with a pillow while he was trying to roughhouse with me. I thought I might have hurt him. But he got up like the energnizer body just fine. By the time Lisa picked him up this evening, it was already 7:30 PM. But I didn't mind one bit. That's because today was probably one of the best Thursdays Johnnie and i have had. In fact, when Lisa called to get him Johnnie and I were just watching TV together, daddy and son in his own words... "resting" together. Kinda felt cool in fact. And so with that I told Lisa we'd see each other this weekend and off I went to finish 11,000 steps tonight. Today was all good. Very very good.