Getting Work Done Finally

After what felt like a contentious and anxious last week where I pretty much didn't get much of anything done, I looked forward to a different week this week. The elections are pretty much in the rear view mirror although sore loser Republicans, and the biggest sore loser of them all DJ Trump is vowing to contest the election results citing widespread fraud and cheating. One state? Maybe. But 6 or 7 states? The ones he lost? C'mon. And the differences aren't even close. They're in the tens of thousands of votes. Still we didn't think it would end up different the way he was framing mail-in voting as inherently fraudulent. Ok then. Pain in the ass until the very end when we drag his fat ass out of the White House. I'm irritated that he has to put us all through all this instead of being dignified and gracious. yeah, that would have been too much to ask. The surprise is the rabidity of his supporters. I mean they are rankled too, and mainly because he has goaded them into this state. He stoked fear and now they are terrified. That state of fear makes anyone irrational. Even I am in a fairly combative state, as symbolized by the pic of me in front of an M1 tank LOL. That tank has sat there at the gas station on the corner not 2 blocks from my apartment for a long time. Yet I felt compelled to take a picture of it today on the way to the BofA ATM. I wanted to post it in Facebook and caption it, "c'mon Trump supporting cocksuckers! Get some of this!!". Yep, I felt combative alright. But at least I didn't actually post the pic in FB. I didn't do anything. And when I did and reacted with anger, I wrote a post... and promptly deleted it. All I wanted to do was to express myself in the moment. And release the negative energy. As far as the day went I actually did do work. Prepared for a one-on-one with Eloisa tomorrow about my goals but I'm sure we'll just be talking about Lam's departure. Even the Business Continuity Meeting this morning lasted all of a half hour since so many people were out on vacation. Did I miss a memo or something?

As it was I spent the rest of the morning and early afternoon catching up on the stuff I didn't do last week. And also getting my steps in. The routine is now to do most of the work at the beginning of the week, which meant targetting a 13,000 step day on Mondays and even getting most of that done before I pick up Johnnie for my turn this week. Better to do that while it's still light out anyway. I also made myself some nice beef pho for lunch. It's getting colder now and that pho absolutely hits the spot. Yeah, it was one of those cheap instant lunch things, but all I wanted was the noodles and the seasoning. I had the real shaved beef. And with that it turned out just fine. And so by the time I headed out to pick Johnnie up I had actually gotten a whole lot of work done and planned on doing more when I got back. Mommy and son were in the garage playing soccer. You never know what the heck they are doing for their day. It felt like she was trying to simply milk every last second she could with him which I totally understand. Her birthday is done and so now we all look forward to the holidays. Thanksgiving is next, then Christmas. Last year she gifted me with pretty much being alone throughout the holidays as she spent time in Maui and then Paris. This year with COVID who knows. I'm not thinking that far ahead because I frankly don't care. I've learned to be alone and that's ok. I have tons of internal work to do. Lots of learning, lots of outcomes I need to focus on. I am focused day-to-day for now. And today, tonight it's Johnnie time again.  Dinner for him was chicken noodle soup and McNuggets. He truly didn't care as long as he got to watch his current fave Isla Nublar Lego videos. I did leftover spaghetti bolognese and went back to doing the work I was doing all day. Johnnie and dad managed to get to bed pretty early today, which is always an advantage when I have him. I get to bed earlier and I get a pretty good night's sleep.  Heart rate has started to drift back down and I'm far less anxious now. I don't believe how anxious I got last week. Could the elections really have affected me that way? You better believe it. Look at how it's affecting Republicans now! They've gone batshit crazy! And it's going to be very very strange watching Trump's shenanigans for the next few weeks. Sigh.