An Abbreviated Johnnie Saturday

I'm still trying to reflect on what happened last night at work and what I could have done from a vibration standpoint to avoid it. Or maybe not even to avoid it but to simply let it through without affecting me so much. I didn't do so well with controlling my state and now I know that is the first thing I need to keep working on. But not this morning. That's because I needed to pick up Johnnie first thing at Lisa's. It is work Saturday for Lisa and I've got Johnnie through the afternoon. Usually I would have him until tonight... whenever Lisa decides she is done with work. But today Lisa's dad is visiting the office with John who has an appointment. And so Lisa asked me to bring him by earlier than usual. MUCH earlier, at least in order to avoid crossing paths. Sounds juvenile still I know but why tempt fate? I absolutely do not need to cross paths with any of the Kederians outside of Lisa and I am just fine with that. As far as time with Johnnie? All this means is that I have him for a couple of hours less is all. We still have our Saturday morning routine to do. And we were at Elysee having our breakfast like we do every other Saturday. And then we were at Whole Foods and then at Target doing our grocery shopping run. Johnnie made me buy him a soccer ball too. Not that he doesn't have one at Lisa's. But I think it's fine keeping a ball for him in my apartment. Anyway we were all set to have what Johnnie called a sports morning. Soccer. Baseball. Feeding the birds in the park. He even packed away a piece of his croissant so he could do the latter. We never made it to the park. We went home and he started drawing away like he always does. And then we watched Cat-In-The-Hat goes camping. In the meantime I had started a load of laundry. Before you knew it, the morning had gone! It was already 11:30. Oh well. It was already time to think about lunch. At this time, I didn't feel like having Panda Express and Johnnie didn't either. He mentioned as much. Instead I went to KFC and got him a box of popcorn chicken. And got me some fried chicken as well. Funny that I thought Ralphs fried chicken was actually better. But they didn't make popcorn chicken. And by doing this and bringing our chicken home, we could eat at home. Which is what Johnnie wanted to do in the first place.

It would have been easy enough to just put him to bed to take a quick nap and then wake him up at 3 PM to deliver him to Lisa's office. But since I didn't have him this evening, I thought I'd just let him stay up and take advantage of the time to hang out with him, even if it was just watching Cat-In-the-Hat and playing with his dinosaurs. I told him he was seeing his Grandpa Koko this evening and his cousin John. He told me he was scared of cousin John. Awww. I packed him up with some paper and coloring pens and scissors and glue and I told him to be nice to cousin John and make him a present like he makes us. And that was it. I was off and away for the rest of my Saturday. I immediately went home and caught on a nap. I didn't sleep well last night and it was good to get an hour in late this afternoon. For dinner I finally polished off the rest of the beef stew I made a week ago. The thing about cooking for yourself is there never is such a thing as small portions. When I make beef stew, that's 3 nights worth of leftover food right there. AND I gave out some to Lisa already. Anyway I finally had some ME time. I knocked off my 11,000 steps before it got dark, walking around the neighborhood and doing some mental clearing about yesterday. I reminded myself that whatever happened, was something I had control of and somehow it was me that had anger that needed to be expressed. I saw myself fling my cellphone to the ground and I was embarrassed for myself. What was THAT about? There was no reason for that. And so I spent my walk working on my patience and/or impatience and my expectations. And then I went home and worked on exercises to control my state. I have all this NLP knowledge already. I'm just rediscovering switchwords again to change my own energy. I have lots of work to do. And OBTW it did not escape my attention that GOLF is a sport I can do to work on my mental "game" as well. I did some visualizing on tomorrow's golf game. Imagined what I needed to do in order to have a good game. Really the main thing that kept coming up in my awareness that I got myself all speeded up last week. And I needed to slow myself down somehow. Yet another lesson in controlling my state. Good deal! I can't wait for tomorrow.