Back To Work... Really?

So I'm back to work today and I really have to try to get some work done today. You see it's already Thursday really and then Monday is when everybody really comes back to work actually. How do i know that? Because it still took only 20 minutes to get to work today in the morning. As for me, it felt like I was just here. Probably because I was... last night at Staples Center. At least the office felt more normal than it was last week and before New Year's. There were a little more people here to be sure. As for me, I had organized what i needed to do for the rest of the week which is through tomorrow Friday. I'm on vacation next week after all, finally getting a turn at spending significant time with Johnnie before he heads back to school. And they are coming home on Saturday, and Lisa gave me a video call to remind me too. It turns out that I AM their ride home after all since Courtney still has Lisa's car and, of course, didn't make any arrangements on how to get herself home when she returned it. We don't know what it is going to be like when they do get home and Lisa is noticeably already worried about dealing with her home situation. But that part does not involve me, or at least I'm trying not to let it involve me. But I'm happy to give them a ride back. Anything to see my son. The thing was, it took me all morning to get off my ass from a lazy state to actually start getting shit done and so the morning whizzed by before I new it. And so I'll settle for that as the lesson for the day: LEARN HOW TO INTERRUPT THE PATTERN OF PROCRASTINATION. KNOW THAT ALL DISTRACTIONS COME FROM YOU. YOUR EGO. AND IT'S NEED TO SURVIVE. Today I am ok to observe it and then act accordingly. The spreadsheet that I need to get started I finally got to in the afternoon. And I at least got a couple of rows done. Better than nothing. And enough to start some kind of momentum. If not today, then tomorrow. In the meantime, the picture I posted was a pretty accurate representation of what I did at work today. I created a new journal for 2020. Started watching some YouTube videos on Energy Healing, Manifestation stuff. It's like every day I'm trying to learn something new, fully aware that I had spent practically decades stuffing my bookshelf with all this knowledge but barely even opening the pages of these books, and certainly not applying said knowledge to my benefit. I dabbled. I didn't learn very effectively. Or at least I wasn't ready for the knowledge back in those days. I think am now. Or at least there is much more willingness on my part today. I'm hoping momentum picks up there as well and I do know I'm in control of that too. The duality is living my current reality with my job and balancing that with the effort and energy to get to my desired reality of being financially independent once and for all. I heard or read somewhere that you figure out how to make money doing what you love so you can make more time to keep doing more things you love doing. And that is where I am right now. I'm in learning mode. And I am ok with that.