Sunday with Johnnie, Dinner with Lisa
And so Johnnie woke up at 6:30 AM declaring that it's morning time and that he was hungry for breakfast. Not only that, he wanted to eat at home. Which was fortunate that I bought sausage and eggs yesterday. i could totally accomodate him and make him his usual McDonald's style plate. And he wanted to help make it too. And so Johnnie and I spent our Sunday morning making pancakes, making scrambled eggs, and I made him some sausage too. And wouldn't you know he wanted to top it all off with cereal and milk! Well if he didn't eat well while in Paris, he's making up for it now LOL. Needless to say I had to blow off golf for this Sunday and I was looking forward to showing my competitiveness at Penmar too. By lunchtime I had us walking over to McDonald's to get him some chicken nuggets (his request). Which meant that I would have a comparatively unhealthy lunch (grilled chicken sandwich and french fries) and having to deal with a cashier who couldn't remember if he charged me for a full meal. Since I wouldn't have any direct lessons today, THAT would be my lesson for the day in terms of dealing with my expectations of other people. I reminded myself to find a way out of negative thinking. And that in the end, just spending more time with Johnnie is worth everything in the world. I posted a pic of he and i at breakfast to remind myself of that. And whatever it is that I missed over the last couple of weeks, I'm not missing anymore. After lunch, as Johnnie took his afternoon nap, I focused on doing some more internal work. I had done some EFT work and tapping on my cold and the underlying reasons I am still experiencing it. And my throat had gotten scratchy too, which was why I was focused on fighting off whatever it was that was starting in terms of illness. I was aware of emotional issues too and I did some tapping on those. It seemed to help, but not quite immediately. I felt the same "symptoms" when I woke up this morning. But steadily through the day I did notice those symptoms start to dissipate and disappear. And intuitively after lunch I did another meditation on whatever it was that was the underlying cause of my cold. I realized that all these years I treated them as physical symptoms that were almost cyclical. As if it was normal to get a cold right before Christmas and then keep the coughing that came with it for the rest of the winter. How many times did people tell me i had this coughing thing that lingers on seemingly forever. Anyway I decided to do some more work on it, reminding myself that I had just bought in on the biology of the condition as I have for decades, but I needed to undo that and focus on the physics of the condition, as in the underlying causes that makes my body need to do what it does. If all pharmacology is is working on the chemistry, what I do know is that Chinese medicine, the one that has been around for thousands of years is all about balance. I asked my intuition for permission to dig deeper and to help me figure out what was out of balance. And then I played with incoming energy and outgoing energy to figure out that balance. I know I didn't exactly know what i was doing. But damn did I end up feeling better after that session. As in my scratchy throat wasn't scratchy anymore. I merely allowed my body to expel what it needed to expel. And I suspect there was a ton of negativity that was behind all that. When Lisa called to figure out where we were today and what we were doinf, I didn't have a negative thought. Yesterday we had talked about me coming by to pick up Johnnie's clothes for the week anyway.
So Lisa seemed out of it when she called. I do remember how bad jet lag was for the first couple of days the last time I was out of the country, which was the Greece vacation. She is smack in the middle of its effects and was forcing herself to stay awake. In the meantime I told Johnnie we were having dinner with his mommy and he immediately requested rice paper noodles. I had no idea what that was at the time. But when I mentioned it to Lisa, she immediately knew. It was one of those appetizers that were served at the Korean BBQ a block from the apartment. And so we would find ourselves waiting for a table and then eating Korean BBQ. These were a couple of things Lisa would not have done [at least I don't think] or at least agree to do especially that last year when our marriage was ending. I could only hear here being so tired.. and then again about not wanting to spend money on food. But tonight, this was actually HER idea. We talked about how she and Sylvia finally got around to clearing the air about when Sylvia last visited in 2018. That seems so long ago, and right after the time i just left the Maplewood house. Lisa kept telling me that Sylvia was defending me big time. I don't know what that meant. But when she said that, I had to respond that no matter how vehemently Lisa disagreed with my methods or the way I expressed same, my intentions were always to help her. Or defend her. Even during the times she didn't need defending. If that sounds like a little bit of airing out between Lisa and I ourselves, then I'm not going to dismiss it. It's ok. Probably part of the stuff I myself needed to process. In the meantime, Johnnie got his paper noodles, Lisa got to eat with Johnnie and I, and I got to have a pretty good dinner. A win-win-win. And then Lisa went back to her unfinished house, and Johnnie and I headed off to our Sunday night. We were back to normal routine tonight, Johnnie playing in the shower by 9 PM and me catching a post-game of another Laker victory. A pretty good Sunday night to cap a good day for Johnnie and I.
And so Johnnie woke up at 6:30 AM declaring that it's morning time and that he was hungry for breakfast. Not only that, he wanted to eat at home. Which was fortunate that I bought sausage and eggs yesterday. i could totally accomodate him and make him his usual McDonald's style plate. And he wanted to help make it too. And so Johnnie and I spent our Sunday morning making pancakes, making scrambled eggs, and I made him some sausage too. And wouldn't you know he wanted to top it all off with cereal and milk! Well if he didn't eat well while in Paris, he's making up for it now LOL. Needless to say I had to blow off golf for this Sunday and I was looking forward to showing my competitiveness at Penmar too. By lunchtime I had us walking over to McDonald's to get him some chicken nuggets (his request). Which meant that I would have a comparatively unhealthy lunch (grilled chicken sandwich and french fries) and having to deal with a cashier who couldn't remember if he charged me for a full meal. Since I wouldn't have any direct lessons today, THAT would be my lesson for the day in terms of dealing with my expectations of other people. I reminded myself to find a way out of negative thinking. And that in the end, just spending more time with Johnnie is worth everything in the world. I posted a pic of he and i at breakfast to remind myself of that. And whatever it is that I missed over the last couple of weeks, I'm not missing anymore. After lunch, as Johnnie took his afternoon nap, I focused on doing some more internal work. I had done some EFT work and tapping on my cold and the underlying reasons I am still experiencing it. And my throat had gotten scratchy too, which was why I was focused on fighting off whatever it was that was starting in terms of illness. I was aware of emotional issues too and I did some tapping on those. It seemed to help, but not quite immediately. I felt the same "symptoms" when I woke up this morning. But steadily through the day I did notice those symptoms start to dissipate and disappear. And intuitively after lunch I did another meditation on whatever it was that was the underlying cause of my cold. I realized that all these years I treated them as physical symptoms that were almost cyclical. As if it was normal to get a cold right before Christmas and then keep the coughing that came with it for the rest of the winter. How many times did people tell me i had this coughing thing that lingers on seemingly forever. Anyway I decided to do some more work on it, reminding myself that I had just bought in on the biology of the condition as I have for decades, but I needed to undo that and focus on the physics of the condition, as in the underlying causes that makes my body need to do what it does. If all pharmacology is is working on the chemistry, what I do know is that Chinese medicine, the one that has been around for thousands of years is all about balance. I asked my intuition for permission to dig deeper and to help me figure out what was out of balance. And then I played with incoming energy and outgoing energy to figure out that balance. I know I didn't exactly know what i was doing. But damn did I end up feeling better after that session. As in my scratchy throat wasn't scratchy anymore. I merely allowed my body to expel what it needed to expel. And I suspect there was a ton of negativity that was behind all that. When Lisa called to figure out where we were today and what we were doinf, I didn't have a negative thought. Yesterday we had talked about me coming by to pick up Johnnie's clothes for the week anyway.
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