Golf Sunday for Sanity
After everything that has happened just in the past week I needed golf Sunday today, if just a reminder of some semblance of normalcy and routine in my life. It's hard to believe it was just a week ago that I was at Staples watching the Lakers stomp the Clippers in its BEST win of the season. A season that would end just a few days later. We didn't even know until last night if we were even playing because of the recent bout of rain most of last week. This morning I felt like I was going to go out and play regardless if it was raining or if Scott or Greg would show. Fortunately, Scott did take charge this time and managed to wrangle the 3 of us (he, Greg, and myself) together this morning. And so off to Penmar we went for a 9:15 AM tee time. It was very much wet out there still but no rain forecast this morning. Still, the course was far less busy than usual, even for a cloudy overcast, some-chance-of-rain Sunday and we got to tee off the second I got there. Since I now use golf as a life metaphor for what is going on with me internally, I relished the opportunity to practice. I play badly when I am rushed, anxious, and down on myself for not doing as well as I could on any one given shot. And so the practice this morning was simply to slow my swing down and focus on how good hitting a great shot feels like. Shot after shot after shot. Therein lies the challenge doesn't it? So we did make it out and it actually didn't rain a drop. The problem was that I needed to get warmed up and I played like crap for the first 3 holes. It was a real challenge coming out cold the way I did and I was hacking away the first 3 holes. I was whiffing the ball... A LOT. Fortunately, I did manage to settle down by the 4th hole and started hitting the ball a lot better. And on the 5th hole which was the difficult par 3. I actually hit the tee shot right on the green on the way to a par. NOW I'm playing. I got on in 3 on the long hole 6 but putted so poorly I shot a 7! Same on hole 7. NOW it was my putting. Fortunately I did manage to get another good tee shot on the way to my 2nd par on hole 8. And finished with a great tee shot on the last hole before I whiffed on the fairway. And so the message was that I was wildly inconsistent today. But I did get 2 pars. And I did manage to get out and play and that by itself was a WIN already. Today that was not an insignificant deal. It felt normal even though I didn't play all that well. It felt good anyway.
Usually after golf, it's lunch at Crimson and/or Marie Callenders and then a nap and then maybe watch Johnnie while Lisa plays soccer. But in our new topsy turvy world, most restaurants have suspended dine-in eating. Imagine my shock when I couldn't get into Starbucks this morning for example. So Crimson was out. Fortunately I did have all that food I was able to amass last Friday. And tuna sandwich it was for lunch today :) AND since I did also buy some beef stew meat, I decided to slow cook a batch for dinner later. Me thinks I'm going to have a fill of in-house eating when this is all said and done LOL. I tried to take a nap after eating but I think I was way too amped to get myself calm enough to do so. So I just kept on watching Iron Fist episodes until the end of Season 2. There was no amazing merit this show offered mind you. In fact, I read somewhere that this was the worst of everything in the Marvel portfolio. OK maybe the storyline was deeply flawed. But as superhero stories go, isn't this pretty good just to watch another story about someone having other-worldly powers. This as I keep diving into the energy body and how THAT has been ignored for a very very long time and only now is there a growing consciousness, a critical mass that we have gotten it all wrong all this time. That the energy body IS the most important part of us all? That we are not merely biological creatures prone to attack by some bug that has been there all along and that has cousins like it that will always be there? Anyway the reason I think I was too amped was that I had to get MYSELF ready for remote work! I mean I didn't even bring home the right interfaces and cables (USB-C to USB hub) for my DELL to work like it does at the office. Thank God I had a plan B laptop right? And so I spent some time this evening setting myself up for work, finishing laundry and watching Alpha finally eat it on the Walking Dead. And then I let myself get exhausted enough to fall asleep. It's going to be an interesting next couple of weeks. Starting tomorrow...
Usually after golf, it's lunch at Crimson and/or Marie Callenders and then a nap and then maybe watch Johnnie while Lisa plays soccer. But in our new topsy turvy world, most restaurants have suspended dine-in eating. Imagine my shock when I couldn't get into Starbucks this morning for example. So Crimson was out. Fortunately I did have all that food I was able to amass last Friday. And tuna sandwich it was for lunch today :) AND since I did also buy some beef stew meat, I decided to slow cook a batch for dinner later. Me thinks I'm going to have a fill of in-house eating when this is all said and done LOL. I tried to take a nap after eating but I think I was way too amped to get myself calm enough to do so. So I just kept on watching Iron Fist episodes until the end of Season 2. There was no amazing merit this show offered mind you. In fact, I read somewhere that this was the worst of everything in the Marvel portfolio. OK maybe the storyline was deeply flawed. But as superhero stories go, isn't this pretty good just to watch another story about someone having other-worldly powers. This as I keep diving into the energy body and how THAT has been ignored for a very very long time and only now is there a growing consciousness, a critical mass that we have gotten it all wrong all this time. That the energy body IS the most important part of us all? That we are not merely biological creatures prone to attack by some bug that has been there all along and that has cousins like it that will always be there? Anyway the reason I think I was too amped was that I had to get MYSELF ready for remote work! I mean I didn't even bring home the right interfaces and cables (USB-C to USB hub) for my DELL to work like it does at the office. Thank God I had a plan B laptop right? And so I spent some time this evening setting myself up for work, finishing laundry and watching Alpha finally eat it on the Walking Dead. And then I let myself get exhausted enough to fall asleep. It's going to be an interesting next couple of weeks. Starting tomorrow...
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