Hoarding Joy

It must have been that grounding and loving energy I went to bed with last  night that got me to wake up early this morning and while Johnnie continued to sleep, I went to the living room to do some meditation. I got into my slides on what I wanted to manifest in 2020 and felt good that I started the day focusing on all these things. The last slide of course was to spend lots and lots of quality time with Johnnie and be the BEST DAD. And wouldn't you know that the second I hit that slide, I hear "Dad" coming from the bedroom. It was Johnnie and he had woken up. It wasn't 7 AM yet so he usually sleeps until I do wake him up for morning breakfast. Not this morning. What a cool coincidence. Or not LOL. He told me he had a dream that he and i were having a picnic in a place where there was lots of grass and nature. And that we were eating something yummy. And that he wanted to do that sometime. I do too Little Bug. Anyway all this week was WACKY WEEK at Johnnie's school and today I thought he was supposed to wear a funny hat. Luckily, Lisa did give me one for him to wear. It did not help though that I left it in the car when we walked to the school and it bugged me when I saw that SO MANY OTHER KIDS had wacky hats on! Arggh!! I apologized to Johnnie that we left it and he was ok anyway. He was too busy being a "jokester" [words of one of the moms who told me that's what his son thinks Johnnie is]. Too busy observing the Daddy-long-legs-spider on the wall. Too busy being Happy Johnnie. I tried to take that light-hearted energy to the office with me this morning. There are other thoughts to be concerned about to be sure. The world is still obsessed with the corona virus thing. There is unsettling energy from the political landscape, both from the Democrats who are in the middle of the winnowing process to select a candidate. As polarized and divided as we are as a country, this isn't going to settle down soon. But I can settle my own thoughts and emotions. And I can choose to focus on the positive side: joy, harmony, love. And the intention for today is to hold that space for as much as I can.

It is Thursday after all and the play-of-the-day was TACOS at the cafeteria. You can always appreciate a good taco. And today I wolfed down my plate. The systems had been going up and down pretty much for the last couple of weeks and I am totally aware that Mercury is in retrograde right now. And wouldn't you know we would lose access to Sharepoint at the end of the day?! I mean that's MICROSOFT! What in the heck?! Still...these things do happen and especially in this case, it isn't up to me or my team anymore. Fortunately it did come back up by the time I was ready to leave for work and I actually left earlier than usual anyway. That's because I wanted to stop by KFC to pick up some popcorn chicken for Johnnie's dinner. Heck the first thing he said to me when I picked him up was that he wanted to have chicken at home tonight. He must remember that's the routine for now right? Anyway he mentioned that and that he wanted to have a party and invite his class. Hmmm. Gotta talk to Lisa about that one. Anyway sine it IS hand-off night, I got Johnnie prepped to be picked up. He had his dinner and then we wound down by watching Cat-In-the-Hat and doing some reading (on his own mostly). I'm just hoarding M&Ms until the Lisa phone call came. I reminded myself that last week I got off the positive train for some reason which opened up days of miscommunication and me not feeling good about stuff. No need to do a repeat of that. Lisa came and we did the hand-off but I knew I would be seeing Johnnie on Saturday morning anyway because Lisa is working. Lisa is focused on her physical issues this evening and I tried to be as sympathetic as I could. She's having infections again blah-blah-blah. I did send her her Blue Shield COB for her last surgery. Man, the insurance company was billed $30K for which Lisa was not responsible for a dime. She better be thankful for healthcare LOL LOL. The one I am providing her LOL LOL. Hey at least we conversed tonight right? Anyway hand-off all done I settled in with a cup of tea and watched Picard S01E07 to wind down. And went to bed NOT at 1 AM. Again LOL LOL. I held positive space pretty well today I thought. It was a pretty good day.