Back to Routine

The day after a 3-day weekend is always difficult but in the end it's all about getting back to routine, especially if it's a weekend where I didn't see much of Johnnie. Like this past weekend. I was all too happy to have him back in the house last night. And all too happy to be waking up to him asking if it's a vacation day today the second he woke up. He didn't seem particularly excited to go back to school this morning but then again I think he does enjoy watching Land Before Time while eating his morning cereal. And in the end he's already used to walking to school with me in the morning anyway. And we even managed to leave EARLY! So much so I walked us much slower just so we didn't get to the classroom too early. It was a nice day and I must say I'm glad to be starting the week. Although coming in to work I did notice that I didn't really do much of anything in terms of preparing for my one-on-one with Eloisa this week. And just one chat on TEAMS reminded me of what I needed to do this morning, and really the rest of the day. It was in my notes for the upcoming one-on-one which is tomorrow.

* As of 1/31/2020, IS budget is $119k over.  Reasons and action plan please *

I fought off the reaction to panic. After all, that amount was much larger than I thought my budget was over by. But when I sat down and looked, I found out that I actually DID have an explanation. OCHIN EPIC alone was already $52K over. That's already half. And then they counted expenses for Loma which was another $35K. That's already $87K. And then came the painful task of logging AT&T invoices. And realizing which all the stuff I had messed up on we actually paid $11K this year for last year's monthly expenses. And had to double up on a couple of months because of the whole Loma miscommunication about when it was supposed to be opening. That's about $20K right there too. Those 3 events alone was already $107K and that's being conservative. I think if he amortized a couple of the big contracts from the past couple of months, that would almost totally explain everything. As long as this all is explainable I think I'm ok. I remind myself that last night's conversation with Lisa on the phone about how our marriage ended and this stuff which brings up my insecurity issues with my job are just prime stuff that my Higher Self is directing me to work on now in order to continue with my healing process and get on with being my BEST SELF. And also to help me get over my FEARS and help me get over my GUILT.

And so with that I spent the day logging in expense and invoice entries in my little spreadsheet. And I was actually amazed at how much information I was able to amass. I should have been doing this all along but sort of lost the motivation to do so even when Justin left. But now I'm sort of back to doing it which is merely a part of my competent IT Director self. And I remind myself that I am real good at what I do. That negates whatever fear comes up with working with Eloisa. I reminded myself this came up last year while Johnnie and I were in San Diego about Sharepoint. And when we met it was actually much better than I had thought and I wasn't in deep shit at all. AND I reminded myself that at the end of the day, what matters most is picking up Johnnie at school, as simple as that sounds. And so I did and this being Tuesday night, of course we would go home and I would make him penne pasta noodle soup. And I would barbecue some Italian sausage. Johnnie seemed a little less energetic tonight though. He complained about getting boinked in the head running into some pole and he did have a little bump, but not that bad at all. I was a little worried that he really did get his head hurt today at school. Simply because he was just laying around the couch not really being his jump-around-be-bop self. It was as if he was sick but then again he didn't have a temperature or anything. I just told him he'd be going to bed early tonight and he didn't fight when I told him he'd be taking a shower right around 8 PM. In fact, the way he was yawning right in the shower, it became clear to me that he was simply tired. Kind of like when he came back from Paris. It made sense now. He was simply run ragged by mommy of course this entire weekend. He didn't even want a bedtime story or a video or anything. After the shower he just crawled into bed with his Fuzzy and he went out like a light. And fast. It was 8:30 PM. Awww... my Little Bug is just tired. I took the opportunity to work on my Invoices database since I had brought some home to work on. I felt I was ready for tomorrow. And then I went to bed. It was 11:30PM. Much earlier than when I'd put a presentation together. And that was good. Tuesday=Monday in the books.