Downtime

I woke up this morning and got some very nice meditation in for a good hour and a half at least. I meditated on the things I wanted to manifest... FINANCIAL INDEPENDENCE, focused on blockages, and eventually got around to some emotional stuff I needed to heal. It is the day after Valentine's Day after all and of course, less than a year from being officially divorced, there is still stuff to clear. And I realize that this is an ongoing thing, just like cleaning your house, or taking a shower. Stuff needs to get cleaned as part of a maintenance process. Until you don't have to clean it anymore. I think I'm still touching the surface in terms of the actual techniques to do stuff and specific things, timings, etc but I think I'm also doing pretty well with just the stuff that I know. It doesn't have to be perfect and precise. Intention is the key. And not only that but I also put in my own affirmation-on-theta meditation. The one I made myself and looped it. By the time I got done it was past 8 AM and when I looked at my fitbit I had logged a good 8 hours of sleep. FANTASTIC! The interesting thing was that I wanted to keep up that momentum this morning. Wanted to watch some more videos. Only the ones that I got attracted to today involved not manifestation, or law of attraction, or financial stuff. At least not directly. I watched a couple of more videos from Aaron Abke and actually watched some stuff that had a spiritual bent on them. Stuff about Heaven, Hell, angels, even negative or demonic entities. And then he describes about how he based his belief on hell specifically from a pastor named Carlton Pearson. This is the video he talked about. And it SO resonated with me too. Especially the part about how we're ALL already saved. So monumentally different from fundamental Christian stuff. Suddenly I realized that I am in alignment with the views of this pastor. Even found him in an interview with Dr. Michael Beckwith. And in alighment with Filipino pastor Joshua Tongol. And I had the distinction that this point of view is emerging and i am merely one point of consciousness that helps create critical mass. What to do with that I'll have to see.

I was so wrapped up in watchin all these videos and then I also threw in a couple of episodes of "the Outsider" since I had a free day of HBO. To force myself out of the house I went to get the usual lunch at Bristol Farms Playa vista. I love how they make you the thickest turkey sandwich. And then I got some sample guacamole too to eat my chips at home with. I ended up having a pretty nice lunch and since I had gotten good sleep from last night, I didn't have to take a nap this afternoon. Didn't stop me from simply chillin' though, hence the picture by my pool. I figured I needed to integrate all that knowledge and insights I got from this morning. Except... boy is that a gut I'm seeing there in the picture? That reminded me... I was at 1600 steps at 4 PM. Uh-oh. Am I going to get to 11,000 steps today? Heck can I even make 10,000? I decided to go shopping. And I ended up walking to Whole Foods. And then when I got done, I put the groceries away and then went on and walked to Ralphs and got some more groceries. I did a full-on grocery run, INCLUDING Trader Joe's. By the time I got done, I felt tired. And no wonder. I was at 10,000 steps and it wasn't even 6 PM yet. I sure made up the gap in a real big hurry didn't I? And then I made myself some old school ground pork and bok choy for dinner. Haven't had that in a while. Used to be a staple I would make for Lisa... that she wouldn't eat LOL LOL. I thought about she and Johnnie supposedly going hiking today and I hoped that Johnnie had a good time. I hope I get to see him tomorrow anyway. Anyway, I made enough for at least 2 more nights and that's ok. I never did get around to cleaning the apartment, not that I was real serious about doing that anyway. I swept around the TV area and under the couch. But no detailing like I would. Simply no energy and no time.  I was already past 12,000 steps and I didn't feel like exerting myself anymore. Just watched some of the NBA All-Star festivities stuff and watching more TV. It was a downtime Saturday as it turned out and that is perfectly fine with me.