Hump Wednesday

I'd like to be able to say I was very motivated today, I was clear in my goals and intentions and I had myself a pretty good day. But I can't. What I did do though was at least get my priorities done. And that was getting Johnnie his breakfast, getting him ready for school and then walking him to his classroom. Here was the pic and it may be my favorite pic that no one is probably going to get to see. Just me being Johnnie's DAD.. my favorite occupation in the world. And I admit it's getting harder and harder to focus at work. Still I made the commitment to keep my job until I replace THAT income with an equal or greater steady income stream [which does NOT mean another job though] and so off I go to work right after I dropped Johnnie off. Today is Hump Day Wednesday and is usually chock full of meetings of some sort. But not today. In fact, today my calendar was clear all day. I admit I didn't exactly focus on priorities either, merely on what stuff gnawed at my attention via emails, and Teams messages. Hey the way I saw it, we're doing pretty good this week with the systems being mostly up after a pretty trying last week when different network stuff kept blowing up all over the place and all week long. It's been pretty quiet so far, knocking on wood and fingers crossed. It really does feel like I'm all over the place mentally though. I'm at work and I'm still focused on doing my job and creating value but I'm also still going through learning patterns. If there is anything I'm starting to internalize, is that I NEED TO WORK ON MYSELF AND MY EVOLUTION. DO THE INTERNAL WORK TO HEAL EMOTIONAL FISSURES, DELETE INTERNAL MALWARE AND BAD PROGAMS. Because I realize that I could focus on attracting lots of money as an example. But if I do not eliminate the bad programming that kept it away in the first place, then I will be sure to lose it. So there is obviously a duality throughout my day and a balancing act to make sure I do not lose sight of one or the other in terms of priorities in my life. Provide massive value in my job while I create replacement income. Work on myself to eliminate my own self-sabotaging patterns and programming. That's the goal. Did I do those today? I thought I did ok. It's slow going in terms of seeing results though, and that's ok. That's just my ego demanding proof. Which is why I keep going back to the sure priority: do a good job being Johnnie's dad. On that note, I picked him up from school and as usual he was all smiles as he gave me what he was working on in the past hour at STAR. They sure do manage to keep the kids busy. Before we left I took a picture of Johnnie at the Buddy bench, which is probably similar to the TALKING CHAIR at Blue Oak. And then Johnnie and I were off to Panda Express Westwood. It felt like they got some kind of directive today, maybe to be more engaged with the customers. I had no complaints anyway otherwise I wouldn't be coming here every week now would I? But tonight, they gave Johnnie a coloring picture and crayons and gave him an entire box full of fortune cookies! Wow! And so not only did Johnnie eat up all of his chicken, but he also managed to finish the coloring drawing. He was so proud of it LOL. And when he was so full he pooped right there and didn't want to wait to go home, I knew it would already be a quiet night. That's because he was so full that on the drive home, him falling asleep in the back seat was a virtual certainty. Last week he did the same thing and I welcomed it because I hadn't done more than 3500 steps by the time we were headed home. Tonight was different. I was already almost at 9000 steps by then. How did I do that? By walking to Macy's in the afternoon to try to exchange those 502s I got over Christmas. The only thing was that when I folded them open to try them on, they were the ripped jeans style. Arghh! I don't want those! Great... now I get to go back yet one more day tomorrow... anyway with Johnnie asleep I just kicked back on the couch and enjoyed a little ME time. I had all of an hour before I woke him up so he wouldn't do so in the middle of the night. He was so grumpy... until I put Frozen songs on. And then he was ok and his laughing self again. So we really didn't end up doing much. Just our little rituals. Our little dances, our little jokes, our routines. And that was plenty good enough for me.