Default Setting Zigzag Running

Today was a lesson on what my default settings are. After talking to Jodi last night, I should have just went to bed and gotten a really good night's sleep. It was almost 11 PM after all. But I didn't. What I did was kept on watching TV. Yep, I binge watched the Last Kingdom on Netflix. And I binge watched until 3 in the morning. I know I know. Why do I do these things? It's like an addiction really and I thought I was doing really well. If I was, I fell off the wagon today. And so I slept in. I had to. No meditation, no focused direction, And usually in the time space upon waking up of creating my day with intention, I was simply trying to catch up with my own energy it seemed. And as soon as I made myself a cup of Earl Grey, I kept on watching. All these things I could have been enriching my mind and soul with I chose to watch a period piece which was a sort of Game of Thrones and Vikings put together. First of all I think I need to think about why I get attracted to these kinds of shows. With this one, the difference would be the protagonist Uthred. Of course he's the strongest warrior but he's also very willful, very much imperfect. But he also has a strong moral compass and he is very cunning which is what attracts me to his personality most. He is the strength from which the King builds his power. His is the shoulders the King stands on. I think I fancy myself as that type of person. I fancy myself as the hidden figure that may not show up in the chronicles but is indispensable and without whom none of the significant things that have happened ever would have happened. Or maybe that's just my ego coming up to the surface once again? I do realize I got another annoying email from my boss last night regarding a task I need to complete by Tuesday. Upon further consideration, it's not really anything out of the ordinary... except to that part of me that is insecure, that is easily annoyed, that hates being not in control, that feels nothing is ever enough. And THAT is already pretty clear is the work that I need to do today. As I had focused on the Tech council meeting and did pretty well with it, my vibration somehow took a bit of a nosedive yesterday for some reason. And so I sort of drowned myself in inattention. I didn't want to think about anything. Which is why I shut myself off and simply watched TV and the Last Kingdom all day long. And when I say all day long, I really did spend all day watching it.

By the time I looked up it was already 3 PM and I didn't even take a nap that my body needed. Fortunately, there were other default settings that kicked in that got me off the couch. By 4 PM, I didn't even have 1000 steps in. And then I got a call from Lisa asking if I wanted to come by for dinner. I told her I had bought mahi mahi yesterday and that would make a pretty good meal. I think Johnnie was simply asking about me and so Lisa felt compelled to check out what I was up to. Definitely not going to tell her I was checked out on the couch. But then again, maybe it's not so bad to simply check out for a day right? And so what I did was go for a little run. And I kept on watching the Last Kingdom. How did I do that? By doing zig zag running. That's when you run inside a one-bedroom apartment zigging and zagging all around the tiny space. This way I'm sort of running while I'm still watching TV. After all, I didn't need to be at Lisa's until 6:30 PM. I zigged and zagged and zigged and zagged and by 6 PM I had gotten to 8000 steps! That's almost 3 1/2 miles all done inside the house! Pretty impressive I thought. And I got my heart rate up very nicely. In fact, my fitBit said I had done 40+ minutes of cardio exercise. Pretty damn good. By the time I went to Lisa's it would seem mom and son were also doing pretty much nothing. They were upstairs just lazing around in Johnnie's new bed nook on the side of Lisa's bed. They even asked me to join them. I know I know it's Johnnie that really digs on having us all together as a family. Even playing in his bed. I shrugged off my own discomfort at this knowing full well that the energy of a new romantic possibility is at odds with this little scenario. Or is it? It's just a tiny little moment after all.  We all went downstairs and Lisa made a nice meal from my mahi mahi. And she still had rice and she made some cabbage too. And we made udon for Johnnie. And so it was that we had a nice dinner as a family tonight. And this was clearly the play-of-the-day. I did the dishes and then I watched Johnnie for about an hour while Lisa played the piano. Johnnie worked on a dinosaur coloring book, I continued my zigzag exercise, now a zigzag walk while watching Johnnie. And I finished my 11,100+ steps before it was even 8 PM. Pretty good huh?! And so I think I need to send grateful thoughts to Lisa for helping me salvage my day. I got to spend time with Johnnie and do more bonding, I got to 11,100 steps almost from zero at the end of the day, and we had a nice family dinner to boot. I got to raise my vibration after all!