First Heatwave of the Year
I celebrate my part in the rhythm of my present reality. While also acknowledging that it is a reality I myself created.
It had started to get hot earlier in the week. And by today, it had gotten considerably warmer. So much so I was actually feeling hot already when I woke up first thing. I did manage to do some inner reflection before getting my day started, and by that I meant simply getting to shower. I remember I didn't even get a chance to do that a week ago Friday. This morning I reflected on the old movie Groundhog Day, a bit of a viral thing going on in social media as someone managed to compare what went on in the movie with what's going on with all of us today. We're all seemingly trapped in a timewarp all of us. We're all Phil Connors now. And in the movie I recall he was not able to get out of the loop as much as he tried and as much as he did stuff to benefit himself. In the end only when he found his heart, only when he started to focus on the good he was able to do to help others, only when he started to realize he had bettered himself by focusing on learning other skills was he able to get out of the loop. And maybe, just maybe that's what has to happen now for all of us. Hmmm... In the meantime, IF I were at the FRB I'd be thinking about what movie to hit at lunch time, this day being a good candidate day for a Hump Day after all. And this being a hot day, I'm sure some people would have been flocking to the beach. But alas, LA County beaches remain closed (see pic I posted). And so all I can really do today... is actually my job LOL. I did my team meeting at 9:30, made sure all was prepped for the weekend move, did the CCALAC meeting at 1:00 PM, talked about more telehealth. Boy did the meeting devolve into a 45-minute discussion on billing issues. Fortunately I had already had lunch by then, which was a nice spaghetti and Arnel Bolognese. AND I had already done some cardio walk, run-light jogging outside around the neighborhood for a good 40 minutes, nicely ramping up my fit stats for the day. By the time I moderated the 3 PM Friday Huddle I was ready to go. And THAT meeting got done inside of 45 minutes as well. I was at Trader Joe's lining up to go get the week's groceries before 4 PM. Only today there was no line! Or at least I was the very first person in line. And I not only did my groceries but I also did my good deed for the day, sent a text to Lisa and I got her HER groceries as well. That would be 2 weeks in a row not that she will remember later on when all this is well behind us. Still, I didn't care about that. Actually all I cared about was that she had eggs and milk so Johnnie could have decent food. I dropped off her 3 bags full of groceries (to my ONE might I add), realized that Courtney was actually in the house but taking a nap. smh. At least I got a chance to see Johnnie if only for 10 minutes. This would ensure there would be no 4-day gap between seeing him this weekend, which would have been likely, had there been no stay-at-home social-distancing in effect. And especially since I'm already invited to come to breakfast first thing tomorrow morning and Lisa also talked about barbecuing steaks for dinner. W-h-a-t? No fish? This I would have to see. I went on home and finished my 11,000 steps pretty early. And then chilled on my couch watching a Netflix action movie. I also made myself some beef stew for dinner. And actually made enough for two MORE meals after that. I think I did accomplish my intentions for the day which was to simply focus on keeping my vibration as high as possible and keep my awareness up for negative slip-ups. Work on my mental diet such as it were. I am aware that these slip-ups are common and should be expected. What I can do for now is learn to accept these negative aspects of myself and learn to make peace with my own ego. After all, it TOO is trying to do its best for me. It IS trying to keep me safe too. Not something to eliminate, but something to manage and work with. It is just a bit misguided due to old programming. I need to show it that those things I fear, may be mostly false and unreal. So I need to work on that app upgrade now LOL.
It had started to get hot earlier in the week. And by today, it had gotten considerably warmer. So much so I was actually feeling hot already when I woke up first thing. I did manage to do some inner reflection before getting my day started, and by that I meant simply getting to shower. I remember I didn't even get a chance to do that a week ago Friday. This morning I reflected on the old movie Groundhog Day, a bit of a viral thing going on in social media as someone managed to compare what went on in the movie with what's going on with all of us today. We're all seemingly trapped in a timewarp all of us. We're all Phil Connors now. And in the movie I recall he was not able to get out of the loop as much as he tried and as much as he did stuff to benefit himself. In the end only when he found his heart, only when he started to focus on the good he was able to do to help others, only when he started to realize he had bettered himself by focusing on learning other skills was he able to get out of the loop. And maybe, just maybe that's what has to happen now for all of us. Hmmm... In the meantime, IF I were at the FRB I'd be thinking about what movie to hit at lunch time, this day being a good candidate day for a Hump Day after all. And this being a hot day, I'm sure some people would have been flocking to the beach. But alas, LA County beaches remain closed (see pic I posted). And so all I can really do today... is actually my job LOL. I did my team meeting at 9:30, made sure all was prepped for the weekend move, did the CCALAC meeting at 1:00 PM, talked about more telehealth. Boy did the meeting devolve into a 45-minute discussion on billing issues. Fortunately I had already had lunch by then, which was a nice spaghetti and Arnel Bolognese. AND I had already done some cardio walk, run-light jogging outside around the neighborhood for a good 40 minutes, nicely ramping up my fit stats for the day. By the time I moderated the 3 PM Friday Huddle I was ready to go. And THAT meeting got done inside of 45 minutes as well. I was at Trader Joe's lining up to go get the week's groceries before 4 PM. Only today there was no line! Or at least I was the very first person in line. And I not only did my groceries but I also did my good deed for the day, sent a text to Lisa and I got her HER groceries as well. That would be 2 weeks in a row not that she will remember later on when all this is well behind us. Still, I didn't care about that. Actually all I cared about was that she had eggs and milk so Johnnie could have decent food. I dropped off her 3 bags full of groceries (to my ONE might I add), realized that Courtney was actually in the house but taking a nap. smh. At least I got a chance to see Johnnie if only for 10 minutes. This would ensure there would be no 4-day gap between seeing him this weekend, which would have been likely, had there been no stay-at-home social-distancing in effect. And especially since I'm already invited to come to breakfast first thing tomorrow morning and Lisa also talked about barbecuing steaks for dinner. W-h-a-t? No fish? This I would have to see. I went on home and finished my 11,000 steps pretty early. And then chilled on my couch watching a Netflix action movie. I also made myself some beef stew for dinner. And actually made enough for two MORE meals after that. I think I did accomplish my intentions for the day which was to simply focus on keeping my vibration as high as possible and keep my awareness up for negative slip-ups. Work on my mental diet such as it were. I am aware that these slip-ups are common and should be expected. What I can do for now is learn to accept these negative aspects of myself and learn to make peace with my own ego. After all, it TOO is trying to do its best for me. It IS trying to keep me safe too. Not something to eliminate, but something to manage and work with. It is just a bit misguided due to old programming. I need to show it that those things I fear, may be mostly false and unreal. So I need to work on that app upgrade now LOL.
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