My List for Tuesday 4.14

I intend to show patience with Johnnie today. <work to do>
I intend to engage him with a fun learning experience today. CHECK
I intend to provide value by finishing my TEch Council stuff today with plenty to show. CHECK
I intend to show more gratitude today. CHECK
I intend to do one thing that would get me closer to creating more income today. <work to do>

When I picked up Johnnie last night, Lisa was harangued when she was trying to get together his learning stuff. She seemed overwhelmed. I honestly don't know what the big deal was. I told her we're usually done by lunch time and here she is focusing on the stuff he has to share with his class on Thursday (the riddle) and bugging because it wasn't in the format Ms Gee laid out. I realize that mostly Lisa just simply gets distracted because she has so many other things she fills her time with. And focusing on Johnnie's lessons isn't a particular focus really. But she did comment that she would feel like she contributed as a mom if Johnnie got to do his dog riddle that I'm sure she and Johnnie worked a lot on. That's fair. I will make sure he does that, though it took us all of 5 minutes to craft up a different riddle. And with that I looked forward to taking over as Johnnie's teacher-of-the-day. It took me only an hour to fail miserably. I did a separate post on how I made Johnnie cry by pushing him way WAY too hard. I cringe right now writing about it. Where the fuck did THAT come from? Clearly I was not in a good state and my vibration was low. But how did I allow that to happen? Was I bugging about not having my presentation done? Probably. Was I bugging that Johnnie wasn't paying attention? NO. In fact I can see now that when I leave him alone, he does his phonics assignment in a mere few minutes doing an exercise that would have probably gotten allotted more than a half hour in class. Because he has to wait for other kids to finish. And still, instead of just observing, I held him to my unreasonably high standards.  The lesson is with ME. Not Johnnie. ME. Fortunately I was able to recover him emotionally to his natural happy self and we were able to move on to having a pretty good rest of the day. And spend a great deal of time outside too since it turned out to be a nice day. That would be him playing baseball in the barbecue area. And then later on hitting the soccer ball against the wall like he always does on Tuesday evening while I'm barbecuing our Italian sausage for dinner. Unlike last week, he didn't have to do it in the rain though. And I must say he's actually getting pretty good too. I also did manage to do the bulk of my Tech Council presentation for tomorrow pretty much all done and so I felt like I accomplished a great deal today actually. And of course there would be more stuff to be on the watch for. Such as an all-company Zoom meeting with over 250 participants tomorrow. The BIGGEST meeting of its sort we will have had. I'm shaking my head though that I'm still getting helpdesk calls asking what Zoom is <sigh>. Anyway the good thing is my little boy is back to his happy-go-lucky self and I made him his penne pasta soup AND Italian sausage for dinner and he was plenty satisfied watching Cat-In-the-Hat all through dinner. We also managed not only to do soccer, and baseball, but also did a mini-nature walk to look for birds which was part of his lesson plan for the day. In the end I think I'm going to go back to THAT nature walk with him watching for birds and such in our sort-of back yard and actually finding a hummingbird perched on one of the power lines as our M&M Play-of-the-day. The fact that I got it done right after I did my emotional goof-up with him was also a very good thing. It turned out that we had a pretty nice day actually and of course this being Tuesday night and all, I had to bake up some cookies didn't I? He enjoyed that too. And by the end of the day he was wrestling with KNuckle Sandwich, roughhousing like he always does. He had an early night. I didn't because I had to put the finishing touches on my presentation tomorrow. I felt good about it though. I went to bed before midnight and I'm ready for tomorrow.