How did I manage to make my sweet little Johnnie cry? Because I have to acknowledge my dark side which is the side that can be a real ASSHOLE sometimes. We were doing his lessons and I simply lost patience with his writing and how he was reversing everything. I yelled at him. So loud he started to cry. WHY DID I DO THAT? He is a very smart little boy. More intelligent than anyone I know. And I yelled at him like he didn't know anything. I am SO disappointed... in myself. He's 5 years old for God's sake. This is where I need to learn patience and acknowledging that maybe my expectations of people are way out of whack. If I was me watching how I treated Johnnie I might have just strangled that idiot who was yelling at my kid! I am sooo sorry. I hugged him and hugged him until he stopped crying. Told him it was daddy that was wrong. And how sorry I was. This is EXACTLY the kind of negative programming I do not with to expose Johnnie to and here I am I AM THE PERPETRATOR. Turns out I'm worse than any virus. I have to learn and grow from this. I INTEND TO BE PATIENT AND MORE LOVING WITH HIM FROM NOW ON.
AND NOW I HAVE AN EXAMPLE OF WHAT NOT TO BE.
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