Reset Monday

Ahhh another work at home week, and for all indications we have at least a month of it I think. And as I write that I can't help but think I'm already accustomed to it enough to the point of if and when we come back, I think I'm going to want to work remotely most, if not all the time. And if not, be sure to line up something that would do just and work for myself anyway. Which was the goal that I gave myself but really haven't done much about it. I have to think it's because there is something blocking me from going all in on that... perhaps the fear of failure and uncertainty. And that's ok.  I'm cautious by nature anyway. It only LOOKS like I"m reckless. But every move on my part is actually calculated and calculated heavily. That much I have to give myself. And so as I roll into the Business Continuity Meeting mid-morning today I did focus on my intentions for work and my intentions otherwise. For work there is a list of the things I need to get done in order to feel accomplished for the week. And then I visualized that my team and I (I.S.) continue to get acknowledgement this week. I visualized feeling secure in my job, and in general focusing on feeling how much I really do matter. Not egotistically, but that I provide great value and it is noticed. I wanted to check in on my team too since they all had to work OT this past weekend. But I simply didn't have time to this morning.

Anyway, I wanted to have a nice walk by lunchtime, maybe get in a little nap in as well. I actually started to walk to Whole Foods... but decided to drive there instead since I was hungry. And got myself a carnitas burrito for lunch. Who KNEW they had burritos?? By the time I got back I suddenly remembered I had a 1 PM consulting call with Docusign so I could onboard. I had only been trying to get this account off the ground for a month now. I lost sleep thinking about how it got stuck in the contracting approval process. And last week once and for all I did manage to get the contract through. And by 2 PM today after my consulting call, I knew what i was doing and was able to log in and administer users. Just in the nick of time too. As at least 2 of the EAs had bugged me last week about when I was deploying the account. A-HA!!! All done now!!! One HUGE thing off my back. I was J-u-s-t about to do my afternoon walk when I get a call from Lisa. She wanted to make arrangements for the Johnnie pick-up. It was only 3 PM at this time. Her calling this early means he has gotten on her nerves... or at least she was occupied doing something else and needed him out of her hair. LOL. Hey I do the same thing right? She wanted to know if I could pick him up early today. Since there was no afternoon huddle today I was only all too happy to do the pickup early. And so I went to Lisa's office where he was and found mom and son deep diving into one of his lessons. My sense was that she had pretty much ignored him all day and now that I'm here she's rushing through 4 days of lessons in 5 minutes. He looked confused. Well of course he would. Of course I would trigger a sense of guilt in her. She knows full well about our routines and how different they were. She mentioned food <check>, the rest of the lessons <check> and it was all i could not to tell her that "I got this"... just let him go with me. Which she did and we were off to my apartment. THe first thing he asked for was something to eat. Shocking I know. I picked up some chicken strips for him at Carl's Jr and he did eat most of it! And then we finished his lessons for today. I really REALLy don't see what takes Lisa too long. I think what it is is that she focuses on the stuff he has to share with his class and make sure that it is HER imprint that is on it. Which is just fine with me. In the end I did remember something I read sometime this past weekend. Every kid just wants to be heard. To me as long as he has something he wants to share, and feels good about sharing it, that's good enough. I don't really care so much about the content. OK maybe I care a little... but not to the extent that Lisa does. As for me, I was good making myself some beef chow mein for dinner. And then goofing around with Johnnie the rest of the evening. I even got a break from worrying when to call Jodi when she texted me and simply requested we talk tomorrow. Fantastic! Johnnie and I did a fairly routine Monday evening of Tumble Leaf and play... he managed to remember he had play-doh at the apartment and certainly rediscovered it tonight. I did manage to keep the apartment clean... if I went through all the trouble this past weekend I WILL keep it clean for at least another day. And then it was an early night for me. My body needed it I think. Monday in the books...