Start of Week 4 Remote Work

So based on yesterday's lessons, today's morning meditation exercise included making a list of things I intend to experience today. Things I want to manifest. I look at like I need to start doing training no different than when I started to run way back in the day. Hmmm... the thought of that brought me back to 2006 in the fall when Lisa and I started running together. Sort of when it all started between us. It's a stark contrast thinking about our interactions way back in the day fast forward to today when I picked up Johnnie at her house for my turn to be with him this week. But that was when the day was almost over. I started the day with a manifesting list. And so here were my intentions:
I intend to provide massive value today.
I intend to hear acknowledgement today for my job.
I intend to be aware ofmy energies more today.
I intend to have a pleasant and drama-free Johnnie hand off tonight with Lisa.
I intend to have a good meditation session midday today.
I intend to catch myself and my awareness when stress comes up for any reason today.
But first I have to deal with a rainy Monday and get my breakfast from McDonald's drive-thru. I mean $4.38 for a McGriddle and a sausage McMuffin rivals the FRB morning breakfast for $5.08. And then mid-morning came the Business Continuity every Monday meeting. It feels a lot more settled than when we first met 3 weeks ago, although judging from Gov Newsom's press conference, we're doing this through this month at the very least. Not lost on me was that it's Johnnie's Spring Break this week and normally I'd be preparing to head down to San Diego to go to the Wild Animal park and/or Legoland kind of a reprise of last year. But alas all that is not possible now. Gotta think of virtual things for JOhnnie and I to do. In the meantime, after lunch I did have a very GOOD meditation session for a good 30 minutes. And so I'm able to cross off the last 2 items on my list.

As far as the other items... I felt like I WAS aware of my energies today and I did get acknowledgement from a couple of folks. I felt like I provided massive value today too. And so my first list went off pretty well I thought. But I have to practice. I went to Lisa's house around 5:30 PM and JOhnnie's dinosaur drawing greeted me pasted on one of the windows LOL. His drawing skills ARE improving vastly. Anyway as I mentioned before I picked him up pretty much uneventfully and even though Lisa still waved goodbye with her usual inane "Don't have too much fun" greeting, off we went and I got him some McNuggets immediately. I knew he hadn't eaten. He has somewhat conditioned himself not to eat so much with Lisa. Or is it that he is merely used to her abnormal eating patterns? I also noticed that he was still in his pajamas, which he apparently stayed in all day. That is simply NOT what WE do. I'm all about routine. And I'm sure if I didn't keep to routine, I wouldn't be taking showers and shaving and brushing my teeth daily either. That I do those things is simply part of my own routine and so I keep Johnnie to ours. That means a little reading tonight even though it is Monday night in what would normally be his Spring Break vacation week. A year ago I remember picking him up at Lisa's and immediately driving down to San Diego while he slept in the back seat.  Not this year obviously. He watched Tumble Leaf while I ate my tagine leftovers. It was still raining anyway so there wasn't much we could do outside.  And so by the time 9 PM hit Johnnie was ready for bed and so was I. But I felt good knowing that I did get started with manifestation practice. I realize that I have been looking all over for instructions on how to connect to source. But I think I did that when I meditated in the middle of the day. Could that be all it is? What I realize is that I am looking for RESULTS. Some tangible thing that something is different.  But I remind myself that even in a workout routine, you don't run a marathon after running only 2 miles in the beginning.  Or learn to lift 200 lbs. You start slow and easy and build confidence. What you celebrate is how sore you felt after running for the first time, or even for the hundredth time. You feel sore and maybe you can barely lift your arms the first time, or move your legs. In this case, maybe it's simply good to feel confused. Or even feel no different. Because I do realize it's not what I did today that matters, it's what I do for the next many days consistently. It's like golf. How much improvement can I possibly show playing once a week and only 9 holes at that? Still I manage to pull out a good performance though not consistently. THAT is what I want to build. Consistency. And to keep reminding myself that I am the one that controls my reality. And I need to watch my thinking as much as possible, as often as possible.